“Jesus looked around and saw them following. ‘What do you want?’ he asked them. They replied, ‘Rabbi’ (which means “Teacher”), ‘where are you staying?’ ‘Come and see,’ he said. It was about four o’clock in the afternoon when they went with him to the place where he was staying, and they remained with him for the rest of the day” (John 1:37-39)
This brief description is the story of the first encounter Andrew and John had with Jesus. Astonishing, immediately after, they would say: We have found the Messiah! John even remembers the exact hour in which the event took place. Like when we are in love, and we recall all the details of that first revealing meeting that changed our whole lives: the clothes our beloved one was wearing, her haircut, her smile… and even the sound of the raindrops falling against the window. We can close our eyes and almost be there, reconstructing the whole scene through our memories. The same happened to John, whose memories were evoked by the power of love.
In the Last Supper, John is “the one Jesus loved dearly.” He was reclining against him, his head on his shoulder”. (John 13:22).
Every time I feel discouraged, I always go back to that scene. When I am so tired that I cannot even say a prayer, I just close my eyes and picture that scene. And with my mind, I recline against Jesus and put my head on his shoulder.
Tonight I cannot even read or pray. My eyelids fall down. I will just recline on your shoulder and rest. All I have lived during the day was for You. Amen.